Today was great... yesterday was great!!!!
We went last night to Ryan's parents' house again, and they once AGAIN made me feel totally accepted and loved. Matt and Leslie and I had a bible study at their house ... Cool!!! Matt pointed out a lot interesting things to me. He showed me some verses where the bible talks about cars. "Chariots encased in shining steel" or something close to that. He showed me a lot of things, and we talked about the way he sees the Trinity, the Godhead.
He pulled out a pencil (crayon) and held it up to me. He asked me to look at it and tell him if it was real. I said yes and he asked me, "Why? What makes it real? Think science." I didn't know what to say. Pick up a pen or pencil ... anything really, and think about what makes it real. I'll wait.
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Done yet? Here's the answer. It has length, right? What about width and depth? Yes? Right. That's what makes it real to us. It is three-dimensional. Now turn your thoughts ... Think about the "Godhead." Father, Spirit, Son? Right? Three dimensions? Maybe. Think about it, and see how you feel. I am not nearly as articulate as Matt was yesterday, as I am still a "Baby Christian", but I found our conversation engaging and fascinating.
We also talked about the idea of perfection, and about humans thinking (or not thinking) that they are perfect. He said to me, "Are you perfect?" And I said, believing sincerely, "Not by a long shot." Well, he looked me right in the eye and said, "Think again."
Me:
He said, "When you accepted Jesus Christ, you repented of your sin right?" Then we got into talking about that, and we talked about the real meaning (historically) of the word repent. It means "stop, turn around, and go the other way." To truly repent, you have to not only be sorry, but you have to STOP DOING IT. Who already knew that?
Anyway, he said that GOD sees us as perfect. Why? Because who was perfect? ... Jesus. Jesus was perfect, without flaws and without sin. Perfect. And because of the sacrifice, GOD sees us through Jesus, right? Perfectly. In GOD's eyes? Perfect.
We also talked about how Jesus was the embodiment of GOD the Spirit. When Moses was on the Mount to receive the Commandments from GOD, he said to GOD, "Let me see you." GOD denied him, and when Moses asked why, GOD said, "When you see me, you will surely die." Why?
Because sin is like darkness and GOD is the light. Turn out the lights in the room you are in right now. Make it dark. Then, light a candle. See how the light kills the darkness which is unable to flee? That is how sin reacts to GOD's light. And as humans, we are FULL of sin. We would die if exposed to GOD in his full glory.
How must it have been for Jesus to be here? GOD in the flesh, he could see us and touch us. He could look upon us from right beside us and know that we could see him, and ... WE DIDN'T DIE! How must it have been? He'd waited for so long, he'd only been able to watch us from afar, and we could not look upon him. But when he came in Jesus, he was beside us. We could look upon him, and speak freely to him without fear or death. How amazing that must have been for him!
We talked about one day when Matt was praying and GOD said to him, "Why do you love me?" Matt told me that he went through all of the "Good" Christian answers ... "Because you loved me first ..." "Because you gave your Son for me ... " You know the ones.
And GOD said to Matt, "But why do YOU love me?" I will keep the rest to myself as the conversation get rather personal, but tell me this ...
If you love GOD, really love him ... Why?